To 7259,
It's not that i wouldn't give chances, it's just that you don't know how to achieve it. Time past, and i thought i might have feelings for you. Somehow yes, i admit. But it's just a little, a tiny winy small part of it. But than, you thrown it away YOURSELF. With whatever you said. Like i told you, if there's no trust and honesty. This love won't begin. You can't buy love with money. You can't buy feelings with words. But you can moved someone, with your ACTIONS. I'm not like any other girls outside, because I'm me. Unique; one and only. And obviously, i don't act, talk, like they does. Maybe they are just some weakling(s) who could be move so easily yet destroyed so fast. But I'm not. Because I've grown over so many different kinds of relationship I've experienced. Maybe you don't feel how i felt. Maybe you would think that I'm too hard to catch for you. If that's so, please LET GO. Learn to let go, because in fact. I really don't wanna see you changing just for me. It's your life. Not mine. I don't wanna see you becoming a total new person, which i treat as stranger. If only you was more honest to me. Things wouldn't end out like that. You don't know me. Because you're just out of my world. Don't judge someone by the looks. Look inside me, beneath my outer covering. There might be a total new person. You said that it's me changing, because of my boyfriend(s)? I admit, i did. Change to what? Someone who speak lesser words to guys, someone whose more faithful, and only have my boyfriend in my heart, someone who ignores strangers, someone whose more unsociable, someone whose more emotional, more oblivious to the surrounding around her, having more mood-swings, and speaking like a total different person. But, you never knew why. I might always hang out with guys, (good friends) last time. But i won't after i have a boyfriend. Because I'm faithful, and there's nothing wrong with that. Someone who ignores stranger, more unsociable, and oblivious to the surrounding. Because i wouldn't want my boyfriend to misunderstand anything. Even though he always does. More emotional more mood-swings, of cause you wouldn't want me becoming like this. Who does? But is this what i wanted. It's just that i given in too much for my boyfriend. Until, i didn't know who am i actually too. Losing so many friends, ever since they knew I'm attach, just because of jealousy. Never mind, you wouldn't understand how i felt. You can just treat me as someone new. I don't mind. At least i know, it'll help you regain your hopes and confidence. Yea, i am stubborn. Who made me like this? I preferred to be a stubborn strong girl , than one that can be moved so easily. I wouldn't want to be hurt again, It sucks to the core. Love me for who i am, if not please. Don't ever come back for your leaving. Cheer up, I'm not the one for you(:


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To 247,
I really don't know what i am suppose to do, i really wanna trust. And you know me, i am someone who gets jealous easily. Yet all this you're doing. Hurt me bit by bit. Leaving me unconscious. But you never knew what you did. I don't understand why must those girl-friend(s) of yours, wanna be making me becoming like this. I seriously catch no balls. But could only think they were bitches and sluts. Because what they were doing is seriously showing this definitions. Ergh, but never mind. I'll trust you. Trust that you wouldn't betray(: Aishiteru, Je`taime, Sarang heyo, Aku cinta kau, Ti amo, Wo ai Ni, I love you. Hahas, YOUR HEART IS WITH ME^.^