Friday, April 9, 2010 @ 8:41 AM
"I was supposed to be happy and enjoying today, but two things made me drop from heaven ."
Everything went well, everything went great, till i saw what you said, and till i saw what you and her did. It struck me to hell. I'm just speechless of everything, i'm helpless of how pathetic i am now. Everything i had, was snatched, in such a short time. And all at once, c'mon god, tell me what's next? Are you gonna take away my all, what had i done to deserve all this. When will you stop torturing me , why can't my life be better, why must i live in misery, sometimes i wish could stop being paranoid of everything, but never will what i hope for , what i crave for, be granted. All were just false hopes and promises. I just can't take the way, how you've changed so fast. How fickle-minded you're . And how heartless you've been , if i know what i did. I wouldn't be stuck in this maze of misery. If i knew i was at wrong, i would have plead for a final chance to apologise, and never repeat it again, but now. It's all over. Just by your cruel words. Could hit me to tears, for long. Since the day i met you, till the day you end it. Never once did you stopped hurting me, even if you said you can't bear to see me like this. A mountain of lies, is what i have to accept. And yet, when i couldn't fully accept it fast enough, i get a double impact. Why must life be this way, when is my happy moments coming. Why does everyone had it, and not me. Am i the only one ? Why? What had i done wrong, one moment you said this , and the other time, you turn it the other way. It's really ridiculous, and unbelievable how people could use lies to cover up another, and another. Eventually, having it endless. They thought it was the best solution, but they never knew, it was actually the worst. I just can't believe my eyes, that my "friends" DO flirts with my guys friend. The way they does it, is totally unforgiving and unacceptable. I could have just hate them , but i chose not to, cause i care about them. And the way they return was to have some flirting session with MY friends. Can't they just stop it. It really disgust me how people are so thicked skinned. Are they simply jealous of what i have, but must they SNATCH in such a disgusting manner. I mean forget it, i'll just treat as you girls are just like some hookers out there at 93y14n9 . Grabbing whoever you can find, to make yourself popular, seeks attentions and lastly earn a "business". It's really pretty hilarious when you think of their acts. *teehees. K, talked to much already.
Tata~
Everything went well, everything went great, till i saw what you said, and till i saw what you and her did. It struck me to hell. I'm just speechless of everything, i'm helpless of how pathetic i am now. Everything i had, was snatched, in such a short time. And all at once, c'mon god, tell me what's next? Are you gonna take away my all, what had i done to deserve all this. When will you stop torturing me , why can't my life be better, why must i live in misery, sometimes i wish could stop being paranoid of everything, but never will what i hope for , what i crave for, be granted. All were just false hopes and promises. I just can't take the way, how you've changed so fast. How fickle-minded you're . And how heartless you've been , if i know what i did. I wouldn't be stuck in this maze of misery. If i knew i was at wrong, i would have plead for a final chance to apologise, and never repeat it again, but now. It's all over. Just by your cruel words. Could hit me to tears, for long. Since the day i met you, till the day you end it. Never once did you stopped hurting me, even if you said you can't bear to see me like this. A mountain of lies, is what i have to accept. And yet, when i couldn't fully accept it fast enough, i get a double impact. Why must life be this way, when is my happy moments coming. Why does everyone had it, and not me. Am i the only one ? Why? What had i done wrong, one moment you said this , and the other time, you turn it the other way. It's really ridiculous, and unbelievable how people could use lies to cover up another, and another. Eventually, having it endless. They thought it was the best solution, but they never knew, it was actually the worst. I just can't believe my eyes, that my "friends" DO flirts with my guys friend. The way they does it, is totally unforgiving and unacceptable. I could have just hate them , but i chose not to, cause i care about them. And the way they return was to have some flirting session with MY friends. Can't they just stop it. It really disgust me how people are so thicked skinned. Are they simply jealous of what i have, but must they SNATCH in such a disgusting manner. I mean forget it, i'll just treat as you girls are just like some hookers out there at 93y14n9 . Grabbing whoever you can find, to make yourself popular, seeks attentions and lastly earn a "business". It's really pretty hilarious when you think of their acts. *teehees. K, talked to much already.
Tata~